Issue 86 November 2020 Flash Fiction Online November 2020

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Winds of Change

October 2020

John F. Kennedy once said, “Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.”

Here at Flash Fiction Online, we’re ready for change and looking to the future in a fundamental way.

Effective 1 January 2021, I will be stepping down as editor-in-chief.  It’s been a long run, and I’m ready to move on to other things.

After a months-long process, Anna Yeatts, our publisher, and I have chosen a worthy replacement.

I’d like to introduce you to Wendy Nikel.

Wendy and I have known each other for several years.  She worked at Flash Fiction Online as a slush reader, then a managing editor, where she distinguished herself as a level head, a keen editor, and a skilled author.  Lucky for me, Wendy lives only 20 minutes from me, and we’ve had the opportunity to meet face-to-face (before Covid) a number of times.  We’ve even attended and taught at local writing cons together.

I respect her as an author (I mean, if you’ve ONLY read the stories she’s published at FFO, you’ll be blown away), as a mom, as a person, as an editor.   I am also privileged to call her a friend.

She’s going to take FFO and run with it.  I expect she’ll make me look like a decrepit old dinosaur, which, in some ways, I am.

Check out her many published short stories, and her Place in Time book series on her website:

https://wendynikel.com/

And, if you want a visual, her author page at Flash Fiction Online:

https://www.flashfictiononline.com/authors/wendy-nikel/

Wendy is younger and considerably more tech-savvy than I am and is already making plans to help FFO surge forward into 2021 and beyond.  I look forward to seeing what she’ll do with the magazine.

My thanks to the many authors, editors, and readers who have made my time with Flash Fiction Online possible.  You’re amazing!

Suzanne

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Poise and Grace

The day was sliding into the night when Dint tightened the last rivet, swiveling her wrist until that final washer squealed against the wood. By the time the stars flickered on, she had replaced her tools in their storage tins, locked the hangar doors, and tucked Father’s key into the notch above her elbow, where her skin had worn thin and glassy.

Now she stood for a long moment, with her heart ticking steadily, while the breeze swept dust from the gears lining her throat. Her skirt smelled of solvents, and her corset had rust blooming on its side. The paint on her legs had rubbed away, too, exposing the whalebone shells that formed her kneecaps, their corked edges crusted with salt.

Father would’ve insisted she bathe, of course, using the solution he’d made just for her.

But Father wasn’t here anymore.

So she settled for that cleansing bite of the wind instead, while the evening tugged on her joints. Then she studied the hangar’s oversized window.

Through it, she could faintly see the dirigible she’d just completed.

She’d followed Father’s schematics to the millimeter, leaving nothing to chance. The result was a bulbous cluster of wood, metal, glass, leather, and enough HelioGas to fuel a small bomb.

Yes, the ship was beautiful. An ambitious, awkward contraption that only a human mind could create. Father would’ve been proud.

She’d made good time, too: nine hundred and eleven days. One less than expected.

Which meant she’d miscalculated by one-tenth of a percent.

The error was strange and unexplainable, and it pulled her corded lips into a frown. With no further tasks, she was left to wonder: what was she to do with an extra day?

* * *

She spent the first hour pacing the field behind the hangar, where the grass dipped into a stream. Tiny animals skittered away as she moved—creatures with glistening skin and appendages for which she had no names. Their strangeness filled her with a giddy sort of pressure.

By the hour’s end, her skirt was sopping with mud and algae, and for once, she was grateful that Father wasn’t around to clean up—she rather enjoyed the mess.

* * *

The next hours were spent testing her ceramic limbs. She climbed a tree with prickly branches, and didn’t flinch when a twig ripped the eyelets of her blouse.

She scaled a rocky hillside, gazed at the stars, and gave names to every constellation Father hadn’t wired into her head.

She watched a moth flutter toward the moon, too, and stroked the wing of a stilled bird. She even scribbled her name in the dirt with her brass-plated fingertips.

At one point, a far-off animal howled—a mournful bellow that filled Dint with a strange sense of longing.

What sound would she make, if she could do more than speak? And who would she cry out to?

By the time the sky flushed with pink, her heart began to slow. She reached back, grasped the crank between her shoulder blades, and gave herself one last winding.

Nine hundred and twelve.

Something trembled in her chest. A moment later, Father’s voice echoed from a chamber beneath her sternum. His words sounded grainy, distorted by whatever technology he had used to record himself. “Congratulations, my Dint,” Father said. “You’ve reached the end of your allotted time. Is my airship as lovely as I imagine?

Dint parted her lips, but before she could respond, Father’s voice continued. “Please don’t feel dismayed by any miscalculations. Those were . . . intentional, on my part. It pains me to remind you, but you’re obligated to report to the registry today, to be assigned for termination. I trust that, when the time comes, you’ll meet your end with poise and grace.

The recording stopped abruptly, and the mechanism that controlled it shuddered, then stilled.

Dint had no words for the feeling inside her, so she merely curled herself around the trunk of a withered tree. When her mind finally slipped into standby mode, it felt like she was tumbling off a cliff.

* * *

By the time Dint reactivated, the clock in her mind had shifted by two full hours. It was a long time to spend in standby, even for her.

She watched the pink-orange sun crest the distant hills. Then she brushed the muck off her skirt and trudged back to Father’s hangar, dragging her heels all the way.

* * *

Father had been wrong: she didn’t need to report to the registry—an automaton was already waiting beside the hangar.

The thing looked like her, mostly: female in appearance, clad in heavy skirts, with a head draped in auburn hair.

It smiled.

Dint did not.

“You’re aware of my purpose here?” the automaton asked.

“I am,” Dint replied.

The automaton nodded. “Shall we begin, then?”

Dint hesitated, her mind a sudden cloud of noise. “May I have a moment to . . . look over my creation?”

The automaton’s eyes twitched. Then it nodded slowly.

So Dint unlocked the hangar and quietly stepped into the dusty space.

“I am allotting you ten minutes,” the automaton said. “Spend them wisely.”

Dint said nothing back. She was too busy peering up at something brassy—a placard that she’d bolted onto the airship, back when she’d begun construction. At the time, she’d paid little attention to the thing, aside from fixing it in place.

Now she read it carefully, while Father’s voice echoed in her head.

I trust that, when the time comes, you’ll meet your end with poise and grace.

Dint’s lips curled into a smirk.

Poise and Grace,” she whispered, eyeing the etched words.

Father had named his airship well.

Dint glanced at the open hangar doors. The automaton was still there, looking away, its head angled toward the clouds.

According to the clock inside her, Dint had five hundred and nine seconds left, before the automaton completed its task. It was plenty of time to get the Poise and Grace up and flying.

After all, Dint had built the craft. Who knew it better than she?

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Feet like Wheels

I snap awake and focus on a sheet of paper taped above my bed. It reads “Get Going, Lily Sandoval.” In ten minutes I’m down the stairs dressed. Move like the person behind you is catching up. I’ve done that since I was eight, when my father and I jogged around the park. At twelve I started running since he wasn’t there to stop me. Today, almost fifteen, I’ll blow the planet off its axis when I finally run the track at school.

Sitting where my backpack is dumped in the kitchen, I pull a brush through my jungle of hair. Steve hates me brushing my hair at the table, but says nothing. Almost a year since marrying my mother and he still treads like a stranger. Mother smiles, gently extracting the brush from my hand before her husband starts twitching. She sets food in front of me.

“How’s my little runner today?” Mother believes that running is a stage. If this is a stage, it’s the last stage. Nothing is more important to me. I run before school. I run after school. But today I conserve my energy because I’ll be running during school. Breakfast finished in less than five minutes, I jog to the front door. My muscles flex with anticipation. I tie up my Nike Pegasuses. Solid-black, custom. They’re just barely run-in and I need to feel them all day.

Mother pops out of the kitchen. “Can Steve to drive you to school?” Trick question, Mother. Steve doesn’t want to give me a ride, and we would both drop dead from lack of conversation. I get going.

Annie Reed waves and passes from her bicycle. Sometimes we race in the morning, but both of us have Phys Ed. the same hour. Anything between us will be settled today on the track. Once, stinging from a loss when she pedaled so hard she nearly tore off her toes, Annie demanded between gasps to know what the hell I was running from.

I told her I‘m running toward something. Impress Coach Mephton and become the first freshman ever to join varsity track. Convince Mother this isn’t an excuse to buy me a new pair of Pegasuses every birthday and Christmas.

And today, in case my father happens to return and happens to see me run, rub his face in what he’s been missing.

I won’t let the day drag. I’m at every class with time to spare, keeping my muscles from thinking they’ve got it easy. I tear through lunch to make it to Coach Mephton’s office before Phys Ed.

He nods at a chair but I don’t take it. “Lily Sandoval. I’m a freshman, running the track next period for the first time. Watch and see if I don’t make varsity.” I get going. He can say all he wants after I run.

At Phys Ed, before Ms. Zaan surfaces with her clipboard, even before anyone else has unslung their backpack, my locker is shut and I’m changed and ready. Neon orange and silver. I want Coach Mephton’s eyes to blur when he sees me go. Ms. Zaan is frowning above the clipboard. “Out of uniform, Sandoval. Navy, black or white. You know the rules.”

I stare past her. “Fail me for the day.”

Ms. Zaan walks the class out to the asphalt track. Everyone else is laughing and joking. Nobody takes this as seriously as me. Why should they? We could crawl around the track and Ms. Zaan would still hand out passing grades.

No starting gun, no ready or set. Ms. Zaan just snaps her fingers from the safety of the grass. I take off hard enough to split mountains and shift rivers. But Annie Reed is right there next to me. I refuse to accept it. She needs wheels, and wheels can’t do anything by themselves. All I need are feet.

I push harder when I loop the track for the first time. Three more to go, Annie just behind. I wonder if Ms. Zaan has dropped her clipboard in amazement yet, if Coach Mephton has collapsed at the shock.

Another lap passed. I want to look away and do more than hope Coach Mephton is watching, to know that he is. I overtake the others on the track. They’re moving slow enough to see me coming and get out of my way. I go as fast as I can now, Pegasuses practically denting the asphalt.

Right before I begin the final lap, Annie pulls ahead. She won’t beat me though. And I won‘t just pass her, I’ll destroy her.

Then Annie’s knee locks up. I only see it happen because she‘s ahead. Thoughts of victory vanish. Before she can hit the asphalt my hand is on Annie’s back and I shove her toward the grass. Annie rolls safely across, taking me and my dreams with her.

Time creeps back to normal. Ms. Zaan trots over to us. Annie smiles at me as she gently tests her leg. “You’ll live.” I tell Annie. “But see what happens when you rely on wheels? Lucky I’m faster than you.”

Annie laughs. “I was ahead.”

I try not to think about kicking her knee. Ms. Zaan, prepared to do everything except reattach body parts is already crouching over her.

The others on the track are still walking and laughing, going that slow for the rest of their lives.

At the far side is Coach Mephton, watching.

Finishing my laps now wouldn’t mean anything to anyone but me. I make varsity or I don’t. My father comes back or he doesn’t. I can’t control where other people’s feet take them. But I know where mine will go. They’ll take me across the world if I’m fast enough.

I flick Annie’s ear as I dash back onto the track. She was only ahead for a moment. Tomorrow she and I will see who’s really ahead. With or without wheels. Today, I get going.

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Invisible Ones

by A. C. Spahn

October 2020

Her hands give me the first hint something’s wrong. As she pulls up to my drive-thru window, her knuckles are white where she grips the steering wheel. She offers a fistful of singles and coins, exact change for the meager order.

“Thank you, ma’am,” I say, divvying the money into the till as I keep an eye on her.

“Can we please have some extra napkins?” she asks. “We’re eating in the car.”

“Sure thing. Road trip?”

“Yes.”

While I print out her receipt, she turns without releasing her death grip on the wheel. In the backseat, a four or five-year-old sits strapped into a car seat, dressed in tiger-stripe pajamas. He looks just like her.

“Hey, little one,” his mother says softly. She acts as if she’s looking at him, but her head turns slightly from side to side, letting her scan the road behind them. And that’s when I know: she’s one of the invisible ones. An outline, a shadow walking the earth, substance unshared with most eyes.

My skin prickles with memory. I rub my arm, soothing the bumps under my fingertips.

“You hungry, buddy?” the woman asks her son with forced cheer. “How about a burger?”

He doesn’t answer. He’s invisible, too, and I think he knows it, even at his young age.

Now that I know she’s one of them, I scan for other signs. They’re easy to find. Discarded takeout containers and paper bags litter the passenger floorboard. A rumpled state map spreads across the front seat. Behind it lurks a map of the whole country, its edges clearly worn. A lumpy duffle bag squashes between seats. The boy in the back clutches only a well-worn tiger plushie. There’s no sign of a cellphone in the car.

As I pass her the receipt, her sleeve falls down her arm. An elastic bandage wraps her wrist, but I spot the purple bruising glaring out beneath its edges. She catches me staring and yanks her arm back into the car. I pretend not to notice. That’s one trouble with invisible ones. Sometimes they prefer to be invisible.

So I smile and say, “I’ll have your order in just a moment,” and shut the drive-thru window. While I prepare her bag with its extra napkins, she stares straight ahead, watching traffic on the main street past the restaurant. Every few seconds her head turns, twitching to check the side and rear mirrors.

Even when you’re invisible, there are eyes you fear.

Again my skin prickles, and again I rub it, an insistence that memories don’t hurt.

I slide the window open and lean out with the bag in one hand. “Careful,” I say. “It’s heavy.”

Frowning, she takes the paper sack and draws it into her lap. After a glance inside, she says, “I didn’t order all this.”

“It’s yours,” I say. The extra six sandwiches should keep them for a day or two, and the twenty-dollar bill can buy them most of a tank of gas.

Suspicion creases her brow. “Thank you.” She peers at me through the window. It’s a true look, not the absentminded glances I receive from customers most of the day. Her eyes widen. She stiffens.

I fight the instinctive desire to hide, to yank myself out of view. Instead I prop my arm on the windowsill where she can see it clearly.

Her gaze traces the scars slashing my skin, thick lines crossing every which way. There are so many scars, my arm barely shows beneath them. I haven’t added new ones in years, but after this number of cuts, the scars are part of my whole.

The skin prickles, but I let her look.

She turns her careful gaze to my face.

“Thank you,” she repeats in a whisper, and drives away.

I watch her go, silently speeding her journey with the implicit words I hadn’t realized I still needed to hear myself.

I see you.

I see you.

I see you.

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Indispensable

by Wendy Nikel

October 2020

He’s the only Indispensable on staff at the high-rise’s coffee shop, and it’s easy to see why. It’s not just his looks; companies claim that outward appearances don’t factor into job permanence decisions, but have you ever seen an ugly Indispensable? Yeah. Me, either.

Personally, if I had to guess, I’d say it’s because of his smile. Not how it looks, but how it feels — the way it warms you up faster than a peppermint hot cocoa and wakes you up faster than a redeye. At least it’s always had that effect on me.

“What brings you in today, Joni?” The moment he sees me, he flashes that smile, which I know is just a programmed response of his Artificial Neural Network but still sets my stupid, illogical heart aflutter.

“I just need an afternoon pick-me-up.” I catch the double entendre too late and quickly slide my payment card across the polished counter. “Just a small black coffee, please.”

“We do deliver up to the fourth floor, you know.” Apparently teasing is programmed into his AI as well. My cheeks heat up like a tea kettle.

“I like to get out of the office on my lunch hour,” I say. “Get a bit of fresh air, some exercise. You know how that is.”

“I used to.” He laughs and holds out my drink. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Joni.”

* * *

Charlene’s waiting for me back upstairs on the fourth floor, holding a thick binder in her hand.

The others must’ve been waiting as well; they’re hovering around their cubicles like slow-moving sharks, eyes fixed on me as I approach my desk. I can tell from their whispers that this isn’t an ordinary performance review. It’s the big one. The one I’ve worked an entire decade for. The one that every full-time employee dreams of.

“BusinessCorp wants you to know,” Charlene says, “we’re proud of all your work. You have an impeccable track record and are a real team player.”

“Thank you?” I say, my gaze still fixed on the binder.

“We want to make you an Indispensable,” she says. “You have two weeks to look over the paperwork and make your final decision.”

* * *

The first hundred-sixty-two pages describe the procedure in precise and clinical terms. Through a series of MRIs, cutting-edge brain-mapping, and DNA analysis, they’ll use my mind and body as a template to create a robotic AI — an Indispensable — that will not only look and sound exactly like me but will be programmed with my current knowledge, memories, and attitudes. It can learn. It can adapt. It can continue building the relationships with clients and coworkers that I’ve worked so hard to develop all these years. But unlike me, it will never age, never take sick days or maternity leave, requires no salary, vacation days or pension, and cannot be lured away by a better offer.

The last ten pages of the binder outline the compensation package: in exchange for selling BusinessCorp the rights to duplicate me, I receive a lump sum, which — if properly managed — is enough to retire on at my ripe old age of thirty-three.

My “pros” list fills the page. On the “cons” side, there’s only one: him.

I cross it out, embarrassed, and slam the binder shut. It’s stupid. He’s not even real. The office is empty, closing time long past, and as I grab my coat and head for the elevator, I search the pockets for enough change for coffee.

* * *

Indispensables only require one fifteen-minute break in each twenty-four-hour period for recharging, so the coffee shop stays open all night.

“Back again?” He chuckles when he sees me.

“I need an espresso, please.” When he raises his eyebrows, I add, “I don’t expect to get much sleep tonight anyway.”

The coffee grinder whirs, and he studies me over the top of the bar as he tamps the grounds. “Work issues or personal issues? You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to.”

“Both,” I admit, and why not? He always seems to see right through me anyway. “Do you mind if I ask… That is, I was just wondering…”

His fingertips brush mine as he hands me my mug, and suddenly, I forget what I was saying.

“You’re wondering about being an Indispensable?” He nods to the binder. “It’s a great gig. What’s holding you back? Do you have concerns about the procedure?”

“No. It’s not that.”

“Worried you’d get bored?”

“Not exactly; I have quite the to-read list.”

“Don’t we all?” He laughs. “Then what’s the hesitation?”

I swallow my pride and meet his eyes. “I think there’d be people I’d miss.”

“Loneliness, huh? I remember worrying about that, too.” He nods slowly, and I think he understands what I’ve left unsaid, because he grabs a napkin, scribbles something on it, and hands it to me. “It can be a tough transition, leaving the working world, and goodness knows I’ll miss my favorite customer. But if it were me, I think I’d take a chance. Check out this place. Maybe bring a book. Got any Dumas on that to-read list?”

* * *

I keep the napkin in my pocket through the procedure, and when BusinessCorp has extracted all the information they need to make an Indispensable version of me, Charlene shakes my hand, hands me a check, and wishes me luck.

With The Three Musketeers tucked beneath my arm, I take a bus to the address and find there a seaside coffee shop shaded by white umbrellas.

I don’t know exactly what I’m looking for until I see it. Until I see him.

He’s older and grayer, but he’s reading Twenty Years After with a frothy cappuccino in one hand. Panicked, I almost turn around and leave. After all, to him, I’m a complete stranger.

But something on the page makes the stranger smile, and the expression’s so familiar — so real — it sets my heart aflutter.

I take a deep breath and remember his words: Take a chance.

“Mind if I sit here?”

Originally published in The Arcanist, February 2020. Reprinted here by permission of the author.

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